At night when I'm alone, with my thoughts I realize, every night, that I am terrfied of them. My thoughts and feelings that I keep in side. WHat am I hiding from? What am I so afriad of? I try to be myelf, but I dont even know who that is, so how can I be that person whem I'm so confused?
And with these realizations, I geet this feelng in me and I don't know what it is. I think it's anxious, and I start to shake.
Was I not really understanding? Or did I always understand?
He is want I want.....he doesn't realize! But he knows how I feel. He knows how much he means to me.....I never cared about anyone as I do him. I tell him I care, and he doesn't believe me. He tells me his doesn't care and I don't believe him, we are friends...only friends. Our friends think we wouldn't be well together.
I don't know if I can believe that, we can talk seriously one moment than do nothing but laugh the next. I don't WANT to love him, but I do. <3 T_T
I shed no tears, but I want to. And I won't because I want to appear strong to him.
Am I stupid for falling-and than telling him-for my best friend?
About Me
- Faceless n Nameless
- Turn away and Leave, you are not needed for my Happiness. When you do I shall not cry, I shall make sure you know that I wish for happiness. Roses are Red Violets are Blue It's I against I and me against you. Violets are Blue Roses are Red Living like this We were already dead. Life waits for eternity. Death waits for nothing. They WILL come and when they do I will embrace them. My Tears are Black, My Scars are Red, My Vains are Blue, My Heart is Dead.
Captured
In a web of lies
Beautiful eyes
that look so sad