Suicide

Suicide: Never an option.
Suicide: Always an option.
Suicide: When you're so tired of holding your head up, you give up and die.

This is what some people, people like me, feel like doing everyday. How do you stop from planning, stop writing that note, stop that razor, that rope, those pills? How do you stop all of them when you cannot trust anyone?

Don't give me that B.S. about " Your friends love you" you can't trust your friends, not when loyalty can be changed with the flip on a coin. Or that even bigger B.S. about " your family loves you", even with their love that won't stop them from judging you.

And that shit about teachers and guidance councilor's and therapist *insert bitter laugh* you can't trust them not to look at you with pity and judgmental eyes.

Then there's you, yourself. But you can't trust yourself b/c you begin to hate and detest yourself, you'd wish you were died and then finally you would be.

Finally, there are people like me, who, in spite of knowing this, and knowing how to die are too cowardly and too scared to do it. We wish for someone else, who would do it. It doesn't matter who or how, as long as the end result would be us died.

So,
Suicide: Never an option?
Suicide: ALWAYS AN OPTION.
Especially when no one can be trusted and you wish for it.